Growth and the ascension are reaching heavenwards together, as
they always
do in mid-May: The lanes
close in; the river vanishes behind soaring armies of plants; all nature flowers and branches.
My once open walk to the little spinney that Celia devised as
part of her plan, to make John Constable feel at home in his native landscape, should he come back to check on our
handling of it, is now a plunge into a green
bath. I am soaked in spring from the waist down, and a north wind freezes the rest of me. Moorhens.,
are sculpting the cold surface of the
horse-pond. But when the sun comes oat
it burns. This is May for you.
I am scything a nettle highway. I feel guilty about taking the
nettles' life on a
wet blade — so, new and so tall, and with as much right to this moment as the first roses, of myself, for that
matter.
Nettles seem to cling to where men made a living. Perhaps we
leave something
behind amid our farming
failures which feeds them.
Or maybe they.come to draw a stinging curtain over our failed enterprise. Discreetly veiled in nettles, there is, on all farms, a cemetery for dead machinery, iron monsters tangling with each other in their uselessness and which are thankful when winter no longer exposes their poor parts.
The spring growth has its divine and unmistakable message, for, as
Emily Dickinson says, "God
is a noted clergyman whose sermons are never long."
Michael the Vicar and Elaine the Reader arrive, and we sit round
the dining-table to devise a Jubilee
service, a grand sing-song about Christ tbe
King and Elizabeth
the Queen; and, no, the choir will not be
up to "Zadok tbe Priest". The British Legion is coming, and there
with be flags. In fact, everybody is
coming, and we shall have to set out
more chairs. And nobody will need to
be told what to do, for, whether in Westminster or Wormingford, the British are dab hands at ceremonial. Already peals are being planned and liturgies expertly run up.
And, of coarse, Wormingford is used to it Elizabeth I was here
once or twice,
ruining the Waldegraves at the Hall, and hunting the deer where Mr Rix now has his onions; and
tbe same bells that rang for her will be ringing for her successor.
I
stand in the shorn churchyard thinking of all
this hubbub at Smallbridge Hall
below, its Tudor chimneys struggling
to be seen above the growth, and again I remember Emily Dickinson:
This quiet dust was Gentlemen
and Ladies
And Lads aad Girls,
Was laughter and ability and
sighing
And frocks and curls.
It is Mother Julian's time. It most have been a struggle to sit tight
in that
anchorage in May, with the scent of the Wensum drifting through the stink of Norwich, and the spring birds calling where
now the
football club is yelling in Carrow Road. It must have been this time of year when she saw her dear Lord, and each one of us gardening together, "Digging and banking, toiling and sweating, taming and trenching the ground, watering the plants the while... making sweet streams to flow, fine abundant fruits to grow..." The humility of her Jesus is an unsurpassed description tlhis aspect of him. (17-May-2002)





